Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Archaic Revival and my Machine Elves

Being that Terence McKenna died in April 3, 2000.
And as a respect I have to note April 3, 2000 is a corresponding
month to April 3, 2017 not the year!

So that is sort of like "Chaos' is an interdisciplinary theory stating that within the
apparent randomness of chaotic complex systems, there are underlying patterns,
constant feedback loops, repetition, self-similarity, fractals, self-organization,
and reliance on programming at the initial point known as sensitive dependence 
on initial conditions. The butterfly effect describes how a small change in one state
of a deterministic nonlinear system can result in large differences in a later state, e.g.
a butterfly flapping its wings in Brazil can cause a tornado in Texas."

Believe me me I know! A small change in one state, can result in large
differences in a later state. But the point is on the Archaic Revival part.
This relates to having the good from the bad. In psychology it's said...  
The idea that the "bad is stronger than the good" 
comes from research showing that: it is only through negative life events that 
people develop the capacity for goodness and achieve health and happiness.

Being the Republicans seem to be in power wanting to take
America backward to a small town view, not good for life
as it would be a de-evolution. We all can not make it if
we are against our own species. So we roll on and live our lives,
in a new growing world. GLBT, Polyamory, Monogamish,
and in the future, threesomes in line with psychotherapy view points!
Or what ever it is that puts you into the light, not a de-evolution
into the dark ages!

Really I would call this what is going on the Archaic Revival!
And like in Chaos Theory this is as I see it is a unstoppable event!
"When meaningful predictions cannot be made, the system appears random."
And it's point is noted it looks random but it's running!

Going from random to ordered! Also like the double rod pendulum in view!
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Double_pendulum

Yes I am saying, it's good to have those Republicans in office.
It will make the world stand up against the de-evolution because
the world is going forward!

 

Archaic revival

One of the main themes running through McKenna's work, and the title of his second book, was the idea that Western civilization was undergoing what he called an "archaic revival".

His notion was that Western society has become "sick" and is undergoing a "healing process", in the same way that the human body begins to produce antibodies when it feels itself to be sick, humanity as a collective whole (in the Jungian, sense) was creating "strategies for overcoming the condition of dis-ease" and trying to cure itself, by what he termed as "a reversion to archaic values." McKenna pointed to phenomena including surrealism, abstract expressionism, body piercing and tattooing, psychedelic drug use, sexual permissiveness, jazz, experimental dance, rave culture, rock and roll and catastrophe theory, amongst others, as his evidence that this process was underway. This idea is linked to McKenna's "stoned ape" theory of human evolution, with him viewing the "archaic revival" as an impulse to return to the symbiotic and blissful relationship he believed humanity once had with the psilocybin mushroom.

In differentiating his idea from the "New Age", a term that he felt trivialized the significance of the next phase in human evolution, McKenna stated that: "The New Age is essentially humanistic psychology '80s-style, with the addition of neo-shamanism, channeling, crystal and herbal healing. The archaic revival is a much larger, more global phenomenon that assumes that we are recovering the social forms of the late neolithic, and reaches far back in the 20th century to Freud, to surrealism, to abstract expressionism, even to a phenomenon like National Socialism which is a negative force. But the stress on ritual, on organized activity, on race/ancestor-consciousness – these are themes that have been worked out throughout the entire
20th century, and the archaic revival is an expression of that."

I do see a running Archaic Revival Terence McKenna would of loved this time
being the point to have a revolution and it growing world wide! It's on!!!!!!

So what about the my Machine Elves part. Well there is a lot to me!
Back when I was 7+ I think, a homeless guy gave me something like LSD
or something. Well I tripped out and saw the Machine Elves.
They attacked me with knowledge and I mean attacked! I was taking the
knowledge in when they started to question and hold back when they
stopped and asked me if I could take this it's a life time of knowledge / advanced.
I was upset that they stopped and wanting to know why they stopped being
concerned about my well being when they attacked me with knowledge
in the first place. We went on.

Keep in mind I was 7+ I think, so to me I see the point Terence McKenna
was talking about. So to me I see it as having a better OS!
And from where I have been I just burn catnip now I have been there 
already at 7+ and from my past loves of my High School girlfriend being 
a EX teenage prostitute pimped not of her will! A hair dresser that barfed
on the first date taking me to a gay bar because she felt safe there after 
testifying against a biker gang that made her sleep with a frozen pig I think!
A college girlfriend who saw her last boyfriend blanking her mom in
the blank and saw it like a plunger going back and forth. Blacked out
and walked all the way to the middle school to get her younger sister
only to wake up in a fetal position in her sisters gym not knowing how 
she got there! On and on... Do I need LSD? No not really!
https://walmartramen.blogspot.com/2015/05/where-have-i-been-mirror-mirror.html

I am a lover of life and I know it's worth it! That is the point of all!
So to me I would say trust Yourself and take me home!  
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GN-vMMpja30

“Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering its a feather bed.”
– Terence McKenna

http://visualmelt.com/Terence-Mckenna

Saturday, March 25, 2017

The good from the bad let it roll



In psychology it's said... The idea that the "bad is stronger than the good" 
comes from research showing that: it is only through negative life events that 
people develop the capacity for goodness and achieve health and happiness.

Being the Republicans seem to be in power wanting to take
America backward to a small town view, not good for life
as it would be a de-evolution. We all can not make it if
we are against our own species. So we roll on and live our lives,
in a new growing world. GLBT, Polyamory, Monogamish,
and in the future, threesomes in line with psychotherapy view points!
Or what ever it is that puts you into the light, not a de-evolution
into the dark ages!

The point is that I am pointing to the fact Trump and folk wanting
to push with the small towns ethics. Small towns have nothing.
Make nothing you have nothing and that is a flat nothing for all!

There are issues with not wanting people to be educated by the
Republicans. Like in human evolution making you wonder
why they seem to want to kill it by killing education?
When it can't really be stopped pointing to Chaos theory as in
dynamical systems that in the big picture corrects itself and moves on!
Well the Republicans sure don't like education! I believe all the educational 
TV channels, cable, satellite etc should be free to any TV for the people! 
It will kill the dark ages! Sort of like saying "How do you know 
if you don't know? Because they didn't tell you!"
So I need to point to the not falling for the fear mongering!
Fear is a way to control people and all I see is a over push to control!

Whatever it is with all the bad Trump and the Republicans wanting to make
life stupid does not work as people see all they are loosing and stand up
to keep what they need! All the things that is good for you as I see it is
getting it's head to light more than ever there are more GLBT things popping up
more in TV, movies and life. I hope the others will push ahead also!

To push forward to where people get treated fair, be fair!
It's ok for a married lady to have another or both just be open about it.
Or hook up with who is good for you, go find a Nissan mechanic if you drive
a Nissan, just make the effort because the effort comes back in both
because "No man is an island. No one is self-sufficient; everyone
relies on others." The two makes a whole. Life is short so do 
what is good for you and don't stay in the dark!
Live, Love, regardless of the stupid going on! Let it roll!

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Obligate versus facultative or working to death

Life is short... I know but really it is! For me I have been there did that.
And seen it with my own eyes if I did not do that then all I ended up with
was just wishing I did. All because of something like a false fear!

Why get caught up in the fear mongering of some paranoid beliefs
and miss out of the best things of your life. Life does not grow in the dark
so being in the dark ages makes no growth! In life we all would be better
without the things that keep us in the dark. Or being a lone in the dark!

To me I see it best to have open conversations about things.
I see it as growth, happiness and all that makes life!

A Protocooperation, more of a Obligate versus facultative issue!
"Symbiotic relationships can be obligate, meaning that one or both of the
symbionts entirely depend on each other for survival. For example, in lichens,
which consist of fungal and photosynthetic symbionts, the fungal partners
cannot live on their own."
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Symbiosis

True and should be noted as it should be known anyway.
"No man is an island. No one is self-sufficient; everyone relies on others."
This saying comes from a sermon by the seventeenth-century
English author John Donne.

So being open and talking about it points to a better life!
We all could be lonely in our separate buildings thinking about
how our lives are, not looking at how they could be!
A Protocooperation would be irate and needed but you can't be
that way if you work to death not being open about things!

~~~~~The Gig Economy Celebrates Working Yourself to Death
Mary’s story looks different to different people. Within the ghoulishly cheerful Lyft public-relations machinery, Mary is an exemplar of hard work and dedication—the latter being, perhaps, hard to come by in a company that refuses to classify its drivers as employees. Mary’s entrepreneurial spirit—taking ride requests while she was in labor!—is an “exciting” example of how seamless and flexible app-based employment can be. Look at that hustle! You can make a quick buck with Lyft anytime, even when your cervix is dilating.

Lyft does not provide its drivers paid maternity leave or health insurance. (It offers to connect drivers with an insurance broker, and helpfully notes that “the Affordable Care Act offers many choices to make sure you’re covered.”) A third-party platform called SherpaShare, which some drivers use to track their earnings, found, in 2015, that Lyft drivers in Chicago net about eleven dollars per trip. Perhaps, as Lyft suggests, Mary kept accepting riders while experiencing contractions because “she was still a week away from her due date,” or “she didn’t believe she was going into labor yet.” Or maybe Mary kept accepting riders because the gig economy has further normalized the circumstances in which earning an extra eleven dollars can feel more important than seeking out the urgent medical care that these quasi-employers do not sponsor. In the other version of Mary’s story, she’s an unprotected worker in precarious circumstances. “I can’t pretend to know Mary’s economic situation,” wrote Bryan Menegus at Gizmodo, when the story first appeared. “Maybe she’s an heiress who happens to love the freedom of chauffeuring strangers from place to place on her own schedule. But that Lyft, for some reason, thought that this would reflect kindly on them is perhaps the most horrifying part.”

It does require a fairly dystopian strain of doublethink for a company to celebrate how hard and how constantly its employees must work to make a living, given that these companies are themselves setting the terms. And yet this type of faux-inspirational tale has been appearing more lately, both in corporate advertising and in the news. Fiverr, an online freelance marketplace that promotes itself as being for “the lean entrepreneur”—as its name suggests, services advertised on Fiverr can be purchased for as low as five dollars—recently attracted ire for an ad campaign called “In Doers We Trust.” One ad, prominently displayed on some New York City subway cars, features a woman staring at the camera with a look of blank determination. “You eat a coffee for lunch,” the ad proclaims. “You follow through on your follow through. Sleep deprivation is your drug of choice. You might be a doer.”

Fiverr, which had raised a hundred and ten million dollars in venture capital by November, 2015, has more about the “In Doers We Trust” campaign on its Web site. In one video, a peppy female voice-over urges “doers” to “always be available,” to think about beating “the trust-fund kids,” and to pitch themselves to everyone they see, including their dentist. A Fiverr press release about “In Doers We Trust” states, “The campaign positions Fiverr to seize today’s emerging zeitgeist of entrepreneurial flexibility, rapid experimentation, and doing more with less. It pushes against bureaucratic overthinking, analysis-paralysis, and excessive whiteboarding.” This is the jargon through which the essentially cannibalistic nature of the gig economy is dressed up as an aesthetic. No one wants to eat coffee for lunch or go on a bender of sleep deprivation—or answer a call from a client while having sex, as recommended in the video. It’s a stretch to feel cheerful at all about the Fiverr marketplace, perusing the thousands of listings of people who will record any song, make any happy-birthday video, or design any book cover for five dollars. I’d guess that plenty of the people who advertise services on Fiverr would accept some “whiteboarding” in exchange for employer-sponsored health insurance.

At the root of this is the American obsession with self-reliance, which makes it more acceptable to applaud an individual for working himself to death than to argue that an individual working himself to death is evidence of a flawed economic system. The contrast between the gig economy’s rhetoric (everyone is always connecting, having fun, and killing it!) and the conditions that allow it to exist (a lack of dependable employment that pays a living wage) makes this kink in our thinking especially clear. Human-interest stories about the beauty of some person standing up to the punishments of late capitalism are regular features in the news, too. I’ve come to detest the local-news set piece about the man who walks ten or eleven or twelve miles to work—a story that’s been filed from Oxford, Alabama; from Detroit, Michigan; from Plano, Texas. The story is always written as a tearjerker, with praise for the person’s uncomplaining attitude; a car is usually donated to the subject in the end. Never mentioned or even implied is the shamefulness of a job that doesn’t permit a worker to afford his own commute.

There’s a painful distance between the chipper narratives surrounding labor and success in America and the lived experience of workers. A similar conflict drove Nathanael West, in 1934, to publish the novel “A Cool Million,” which satirized the Horatio Alger bootstrap fables that remained popular into the Great Depression. “Alger is to America what Homer was to the Greeks,” West once wrote. His protagonist in “A Cool Million,” Lemuel Pitkin, is an innocent, energetic striver, tasked with saving his mother’s house from foreclosure. A series of Alger-esque plot twists ensue. But Pitkin, rather than triumphing, ends up losing his teeth, his eye, his leg, his scalp, and finally his thumb. Morris Dickstein, in his book “Dancing in the Dark: A Cultural History of the Great Depression,” notes, “The novel ends with Lem as a vaudeville clown being beaten nightly until he simply falls apart.” A former President named Shagpoke Whipple gives a speech valorizing Pitkin’s fate, extolling “the right of every American boy to go into the world and . . . make his fortune by industry.” Whipple describes Pitkin’s dismemberment—“lovingly,” Dickstein adds—and tells his audience that, through Pitkin’s hard work and enthusiastic martyrdom, “America became again American.”

Friday, March 17, 2017

Lovers In Time



Lovers in time, lovers in a past life, the red string of fate there is a connection more
than we all know. There is a reason for it. If it's a part of the laws of nature there
are connections in life, in that is for the better.

In my life from my past loves I know I effect them it's just how I am.
If it's my mass I tend to effect. It's like in my Zodiac Cancer I
secure, respect and love my lovers. I know if it's something from
a past life and it is big then I know it's worth it. I always looked for long
term in relationships so I do the effort and foundation to make it work.
http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/cancer.htm

So in that it's said "When you touch someone's heart they will
never be the same again. Part of your life will live in them always."
It's not a one way road. Love makes all a better person.

If ignored then you are just going to repeat the same issues over and over.
Something big is something big it might be small like a embedded screw in the floor
but it points. It might of been there long before anyone got there to one point in time
pointing the way. If in one point in time you meet your other then only to meet your other
at another point in time it's clear it's a destiny thing to me so I see something like that
as a light. Why not jump into it? If it makes you a better person then take it home!
You don't need to loose anything, you only gain. Because it's for the better of the good...
Love and support is better than being stuck in the mud!

Love does not mean you loose, love is to gain to a higher plane!
In esoteric cosmology, a plane other than the physical plane is conceived as a
subtle state of consciousness that transcends the known physical universe.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plane_%28esotericism%29

And so that transcends the known physical universe and is love!
As it's said Albert Einstein, That Powerful, Universal, Governing Force is Love!
http://walmartramen.blogspot.com/2017/01/albert-einstein-that-powerful-universal.html

So to say I love you knowing that, makes it clear, lovers are timeless!
Something to talk about!

~~~~~Past Life Lovers - Have you felt that instant connection ?
Have you ever felt the instant attraction to someone you met..? or you have ever
felt you have known them for forever within minutes of meeting them..could it be
possible that you have loved and cared for each other in a previous life."
In the early stages of the relationships these feelings do appear.
Two people quickly begin to know each others likes and dislikes, one often
finishes others sentences, or know what others is going to say, and they feel gut
level attraction for each other which often goes beyond the physical.

These feelings can grow within a relationship even if they didn't appear right away.
http://www.spiritualunite.com/blog/12214/past-life-lovers-have-you-felt-that-instant-connection

~~~~~Have We Met in a Past Life?
However what if you feel like you’ve connected with a lover from a past life?
How can we find out more about this relationship and know whether we should
rekindle it in this lifetime? Have you ever met someone and instantly felt a connection
which goes deep to your core? You’ve never met them before but there’s a mutual
recognition and attraction that is pulling your souls and bodies together
but how on earth do you know this mysterious person? Could it be love at first sight,
or have you just met your soulmate or a lover from a previous life?
The instant recognition and familiarity suggests that this isn’t your first encounter,
as the gravitational pull goes deeper than love or lust at first sight.
But how can you find out more?

Unexplainable Connections

There are a number of unexplainable clues which may hint towards you and your
partner being together in a previous life. Besides that initial instant recognition, physically
you know each others bodies like you know your own. When you make love,
even for the first time, the connection your bodies feel goes beyond passion
there’s a rekindling of a much deeper connection, and in some instances, your soul.
You may also share an affinity to a particular era in time or the same dreams.
Is there a reason why you both feel an affiliation with Africa, although neither of you
have ever been? This may seem coincidental, or like fate is playing its part in your
splendid romance again, although the same details you both recall of your connection
to this place are unexplainable.

Another clue is if you and your partner share the same dream. If you experience this,
before you begin comparing them write down the details as this may reveal whether you
were together in a past life, and the dynamics of your relationship.

If We Meet Again – Should We Reconnect?

When we meet past lovers in our present life this isn’t to say we should have a relationship
with that person again. You may have shared a destructive or volatile relationship in your
past life, therefore rekindling may lead you both down the same troublesome path.
It’s important to understand that while there’s an undeniable pull between you you may
not be soulmates. You partly complete each other’s souls, however the destructive element
you share means there’ll always be an unhealthy level of conflict. It’s sometimes difficult to
accept that the person you’re pulled to like a magnet isn’t for you as why else would there
be such a strong force pulling you together?

However, there’s many factors which make a relationship work and make your soul happy.
Chemistry is just one part of that so it’s important to look at having a healthy relationship
where you feel emotionally secure, respected and loved.

Getting A Glimpse Into Our Past Life

To gain a greater insight to your past-life relationships, you should seek professional
spiritual advice through a clairvoyant or a psychic for a past-life reading or regression.
Through a past-life reading, a psychic will be to see the relationships you had and
provide more insight regarding the dynamics of the relationship, or whether you should
rekindle it if you feel you’ve met that person again.

If you and your partner feel connected from a previous life – it is good to get a reading
to understand more about that relationship, as there may be issues you’re carrying
through to this life. For example, if one of you abandoned the other, it’s possible you may
be carrying insecurities and issues around abandonment with you in your current
relationship.

Another way to gain a greater understanding of your past-life relationships, is through
past-life regression. Past-life regression therapy is the use of hypnosis or meditation to
relive your memories from your past life. It can also be useful for finding the main cause
of any emotional problems you’re experiencing in your current life, or in your relationship
although this technique is more controversial.

While some therapists believe in their ability to use hypnosis to induce memories from
your past life, equally there is a fair amount of skepticism due to charlatans with little
experience using this type of therapy. However, when seeking any spiritual advice,
you should always search for a recommendation or follow your own intuition when
choosing someone. Therefore, if you feel you have a strong connection with your lover
which cannot be explained, or perhaps you’ve just met someone who feels incredibly
familiar to you, it may be that you were together in a previous life.
Opening the door to this possibility can be an incredibly revealing and
awakening experience.
http://www.finerminds.com/love-relationships/past-life-lovers

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Minimum Wage Around the World vs Walking with no Car

Well in America here there is a push to kill healthcare to those that can't afford it.
"The cost is too high!" So lets kill it but if they made more they could just pay for it,
not the kill Obama Care because they can't afford it. And watch them drop their
insurance for a bigger paycheck! They don't want to raise minimum wage because
Obama Care would not be a problem with the higher wages.
They want it to fail, so the pay won't go up!

There are 180 million working class people with insurance but out of that
I see 60 million children waged adults. And with the people all over that
walk with no cars, or drive the bad cars with no bumpers. Just hang an extra
$190 + money in front of them. They have insurance but can't afford to use it anyway.
They will drop their insurance for a bigger paycheck. Why have it if you can't use it?!
The labor force is looking to be uninsured. A liability a lone having workers that might
get hurt at work with no insurance! Working easy to not get hurt. Down in productivity!
Well if the insurance places where failing at 45.7 million what is 60 million going to do?

ObamaCare it was the point around 45.7 million uninsured and
without setting a mandate to have insurance and the lack of subsidies
to help people afford their healthcare they will drop their insurance for a bigger
paycheck and drop because they just can't afford anything at all.

"From the moment President Obama and the Democrats began pushing for healthcare
reform, they repeatedly emphasized the notion that approximately 45.7
million Americans—roughly 15% of the country's population—lacked insurance."

"The implication was that the existing system, based on private insurance companies,
was failing, and that the government could do a much better job of regulating and
administering healthcare."
http://www.discoverthenetworks.org/viewSubCategory.asp?id=1957

So the issue is the children wages in the US!
Make children wages = live like a child. Kids don't pay rent, car payments, healthcare.
And with Trump cutting the funding for the poor, food stamps, help paying the rent etc
and not making enough money to live on, things are looking bad!
http://www.cnbc.com/2017/03/16/trumps-hud-budget-cuts-42-year-old-community-assistance-program.html

But it's ok it takes care of itself in the lack of income for sales.
They have to raise the pay sometime you can't have people living in their 90 degree
apartments in the summer because they can't afford to use the AC all the time!

Walking with no car all over town. Cut back your cost because of the wages!
In America small towns they make nothing that's why there is nothing there!
They can't afford it anyway so you can make if but we can't afford it!
You would think the better option is to raise the pay to get more people
in town with money to burn... No, even if they did there would be businesses
that would lay off all but one cashier to cover the cost but end up with crowds
of people waiting in line to cash out! They would rather have people with no cars
doing without all the high dollar shit in town! Killing off Applebee's because
"There's no value there!" would be better off at a all you can eat buffet!

Making $3.75 after garnishment with kids. That also is a big issue in America
It's not from not paying the bill it's the fees, fees, fees then the fees that is after
adding up to like $100,000 bill in the end being paid off by the other half of the
paycheck $3.75 at a time! Added to the fact of the amount of minimum wage
retirees in town points to the many working hard and making the same wages for
most of their life only to retire on it. Added to the garnished wages with retirement
at $3.75 an hour?

"Up to 50% of your disposable earnings may be garnished to pay child support if
you are currently supporting a spouse or a child who isn't the subject of the order.
If you aren't supporting a spouse or child, up to 60% of your earnings may be taken.
An additional 5% may be taken if you are more than 12 weeks in arrears."
http://www.alllaw.com/articles/nolo/bankruptcy/wage-garnishment-amount.html

PLEASE RAISE THE PAY!

~~~~~Minimum Wage Around the World
The after-tax wage takes into account the difference in the cost of living in Australia and the United States, according to CNN Money. For a full-time worker, that’s the difference of $366.40 a month, or $4,396.80 a year.

Perhaps this is what makes Australia a hot post-graduate destination for young people looking for a gap year to make money while traveling. Not only is Australia a great place to make money because of the high and livable minimum wage, it also has many opportunities to work in its growing economy, according to GoStudy.

"You Might Be Surprised How Long It Takes to Earn a Big Mac in ...
You might be surprised how long it takes to earn a Big Mac in different countries."

There is a caveat in these comparisons. “Other countries have set higher hourly rates, but they also tax minimum wage workers more, leaving them with less in their pockets,” CNN Money reported.

The United States ranks 11th on the OECD's list. But some states have minimum wages that exceed the federal level; the highest is Washington, whose before-tax minimum wage is $9.32 per hour.

Instead of requiring a higher minimum wage, the U.S. government spends $152.8 billion annually in aid to support working families in need, Myles Udland reported in Business Insider.

Wages in general have not increased much for the average American. “Real hourly wages of the median American worker were just 5 percent higher in 2013 than they were in 1979, while the wages of the bottom decile of earners were 5 percent lower in 2013 than in 1979," Udland reported, based on a study by the University of California, Berkeley. "Inflation-adjusted wage growth from 2003 to 2013 was either flat or negative for the entire bottom 70 percent of the wage distribution.”

While it’s difficult to compare wages among different countries, it’s clear that the United States does not take the gold medal for “kindest minimum wage.” That award can be shipped Down Under.
http://www.attn.com/stories/5493/minimum-wage-in-other-countries

Paranoid Republicans, Leprechauns and the Kool-aid Enema!

Just wasting time! That is the best way to say it about the paranoid Republicans!
You can't go forward if you go backward!

It's like hearing there are leprechauns that live in Walmarts
so the Republicans get funding to tear them down with bulldozers
as they have their Kool-Aid enema. And after all of that nothing was there
and now there are no Walmarts to get food because of their paranoia and
crap everywhere!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O35NA6TywAg

Leprechauns and the Kool-aid Enema? Well I had a dream once
that my brother and sister caught a Leprechaun in a jar.
It had a hole in the lid so it could get air. They told me to watch it
while they went to get the news over to look at it.
Well it talked me into letting it go in return for gold, so I let it go,
and it said fuck off sucker and took off!

Did I believe that really happened? No! Like if I did I would be wondering
why my sister and brother didn't say a word about it the next morning...
Just pretend they knew and just go with it! WTF is that thinking! 

As a kid I seen a jar with a coin in it at someones patch of clovers
before. Later I found out it's a Irish folklore about catching a Leprechaun
in a jar! In reality it's a folklore work of art!

But the point is the same all of this BS is just as it is a bunch of paranoids
getting Kool-aid enemas chasing after Leprechauns believing every word of it
bulldozing Walmarts thinking they live there so now there will be
no place to get food for everyone as there is their crap everywhere!
There is no "be in the now" as it effects everyone down the road.
What it is... Is not what it is because there is more!

That is the basis of a Conservatard! And should be noted that just because
they are willing to cut off their leg to save their toe does not mean you have to!
"A person who is politically conservative to an extreme degree, often with no sound
intellectual basis for his or her beliefs."
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=conservatard

"There’s nothing fake about that. Please stop it with that stupid talking point that it is a
fake news story. If you don’t want to participate in the news stories on this network,
then don’t come on and participate. But don’t call them fake because you don’t
agree with them."
http://latest.com/2017/02/watch-don-lemon-abruptly-walks-off-his-own-show-over-trumpkins-fake-news-bs

It's always the same BS over and over!

"Clinton’s election in 1992 was the first clear sign of this, and it was met with multiple
forms of denial. One form this took was the development of Clinton conspiracist
narratives aimed at denying his essentially centrist, pragmatic political orientation
(also characteristic of Obama) and recasting him as a shadowy anti-American
“other,” perhaps even an outright Marxist." Here’s a short list of baseless accusations:

As governor, Bill Clinton murdered many rivals. Hillary Clinton was involved.
As first lady, Hillary Clinton was involved in Vince Foster’s death.
As governor, Bill Clinton trafficked drugs through Mena, Arkansas.
Bill Clinton was himself a major coke user. It’s why his nose is so red.
As a graduate student, Bill Clinton visited Moscow because he was a Soviet agent
(or something). The Clintons decorated the White House Christmas tree with
condoms and drug paraphernalia.
http://www.salon.com/2015/09/01/paranoid_history_of_the_gop_how_conspiracy_theories_poisoned_the_republican_party

Paranoia, for example, simply reflects an attempt to locate a frightening or painful
thought outside the self, to get rid of threatening feelings, project them onto others,
and then turn an internal struggle with bad feelings into an external struggle with bad
people. For example, if I’m suffering from feelings of weakness or worthlessness,
the belief, however false, that someone else is causing me to feel this way can
temporarily help restore my sense of innocence and self-respect.
There’s nothing wrong with me that getting rid of you won’t cure.
In fact, in this paranoid version of reality, I’m a good or even great guy defending
himself against an external danger. What emerges in the therapist’s consulting room
is that paranoia solves an internal problem by making it an external one,
even at the price of denying reality.
http://www.alternet.org/election-2016/psychologist-puts-trump-and-gop-couch

There is truth out there mixed up in the BS. But as I see it there seems to be such
a push to put fear into people it's just stupid. Fear is a way to control people.
If they believe in the BS then they are not free thinkers.

Also noted Trump blames the media for a lot of fact checking as it seems
facts are the cure for fear mongering. The media is a global community
and it is not ok with fear mongering. Fear is control.
And with no media is like no education and more clueless people not
knowing what is going on. That also is being controlled not knowing! 

Being a isolationist without media / community is on the same point
like Hitler killing the Jews because the media / community not knowing!
Knowing what is going action would of been taken sooner!

Also keep in mind the people that believe Trump sort of reminds me of the
mantra of the morons! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WDrgwZsGC9A

And you should know the truth sets you free. It does not control you!

Sunday, March 12, 2017

Where have I been, Mirror, Mirror, on the rocks!



I have always been a lover type of person in my relationships not a hater!
When I am hooked, I'm hooked! That is not a bad thing, from where I been.
(This is a disclaimer. This story has TMI. Just be aware, it's my pain and growth!
No names are mentioned here!) I'm not a player, just a lover!
 
I don't have hate and I learned to not get upset over temporary issues.
In my past I got upset over temporary issues as all in relationships do,
but I learned it's temporary so I let it go as I look back at my
past relationships in relating to the now. It's called learning.
Like you can love someone wanting better for the partner in that
there is no line to cross as it's all good, balanced and supportive toward the
partner. The balance would be welcomed these days and it's worth it!

*****For instance I was with a lady hair dresser for a time in the 1990's.
She barfed on the first date. She smoked weed and liked to go at
gay bars being she had a hard life she was abused by a biker gang lady
that had a death threat on her from testifying in court about them.
She might of been forced to sleep with a frozen pig.
She was a secret wittiness and the biker guy recognized her by
her testimony and called her by name threatening to kill her.

She freaked, so she ended up feeling safe at a gay bar that was her security.
Not one biker would step foot in a gay bar!
Im not gay, she was not gay it was her security to go there.
Every time a guy with leather on walked in the bar she would watch them
out of the corner of her eye. It was that bad!

On the first date at a nice restaurant she ran to the bathroom
and threw-up everywhere. She was like a keeper seeing the back of her
as she was running to the bathroom, then with a Blaaaah, Splat noise she went.
These "Party girls" with their little lipstick purse came running out screaming
with their hands in the air and high heels going tap, tap, tap as they ran out!
The bathroom door was slow to close, so I saw all that from the table I was at.
At the time I wanted to hold up a lighter for her, but didn't have one!
Nervous, high etc she got sick, I took that cougar back to her environment which
was the gay bar all was ok it's her normality there. She told me where she likes to go
thinking I would say hell no, but I accepted her for who she is and
she could not believe it.

As I am I tend to be like a valium so she took me home on the first date.
Keep in mind of her past, a strange man in a waterbed with her passed out
tired, she farted in her sleep. This never happens in life, a lady like her would
be aware of my every move. Nope she slept and farted! And I had to try
not to laugh as I would of shook the waterbed. You don't want to suddenly
wake up tired older cougar. Let sleeping cougars sleep!
She farted in her sleep what would Sigmund Freud say?
Trust, that is the point!

I had to carry her over my shoulder to the car once. The bar owner kept calling me
at work letting me know she was smashed that night. She got too drunk that night
and I took her home put her in her bed. She mumbled before she passed out
something like if I stick it in her @$$ use the gel. I kissed her and went back to
my place. She didn't know what she was saying! Significant others don't
BLANK you in the BLANK when you are passed out drunk!
Her room mate was a transvestite / now called transgender, she took care of him
like her son. There is a amount of fairness and respect that was shown by that.

My relationship with the hairdresser didn't workout but that was ok.
This was one of the fun / humanistic relationships I had.

*****Also in the 1990's I had a friend and his wife take me out to dinner at
Denny's so they could talk to me about...  Well my friend's wife told me they
wanted to have sex with me. And some guy behind us in the other seat said
"I'll be damned, a male unicorn!" I replied "Hay... I'm not gay!"
I didn't expect that and It is funny that I can say
"I'M A UNICORN, BUT I'M NOT GAY!"
That is not me, so I found it funny that they said that to me!
They where still my friends but I let them know it's not me!
*****I dated a lady I met on the internet. I also met her before I met her. 
Red string of fate! I first met her when I was on the school bus in high school. 
Her and her kids where going backward into a intersection in their car with a 
T-top after doing a burnout. It was a cloudy day and when they went flying 
backward they stopped in the middle of the intersection when there was a 
opening in the cloud and a beam of light shined on their car and only their car. 
She put her hands in the light and waved them around before they took off again. 
I am glad I dated her but I didn't know if we where meant to be. 
I never thought of these things like that before. On the bus I knew it was like a 
spot light on her but I never understood back then. 

*****I dated a lady that was a head lady in the federal credit union.
She had a short life span due to a enlarged heart. She was in need of a 
heart transplant. I was dating her to make life better for her.
It was a love and support relationship as she had heart problems
and a short life... Take into your life what is good for you life's short!

*****Also had a lady tell me "We like you." "My other personality likes you
and I trust her so im ok with it!"

*****Also you could say I had a date with a married lady when I was 10.
When I was in my elementary time 1979 I think,
I remember a teacher taking me to a bar to have a coke to also meet
her boyfriend or husband. It was something about her pay check
to pay the rent, she brought me along. Nothing bad!
That was really cool it was life in the 70's!
 
*****I fell for a married lady who was a Angie Dickinson lookalike, my boss
when I worked at a Hotel. She went to a salon once and fixed her hair.
It caused me problems at work! It was to the point her co-worker said
something like "Look at him, your driving him nuts!"
She came over and poked me, and said OK, we need to fix this.
She went back to the salon and had her hair toned down.
Many knew I was in love with her and the hair issue was just proof of it.

People at work knew I fell for her, and we where sort of notarized by a coworker
telling me damn she's yelling at you at work and your not even her husband!
"Stop standing up for my husband, stop it, stop it!"
I was for her best interest because she's my best interest, I was for her
because I did need her also! I looked forward to working with her!

The hotel put a obvious hidden camera in the wall once. A few months later I fixed it.
I knew it bugged her and I got sick of it also so enough! I covered the hole with butter
being the color of the butter was the same color of the wall and respectfully the same as
her hair color. (Only I would notice something like that. When I get it bad I get it bad!)
Anyway the butter worked no more camera in the wall and no one said anything.

*****I also dated a lady who's mom smoked hash. The little dog even got
into it and made it psychotic. She showed me her "Mom's stash of hash!"
She caught her past boyfriend having sex with her mom in a bad place and
saw everything she had a total breakdown. Her mom was smoking too much at
the time and didn't know what was going on. I was her first boyfriend after that and
I had to deal with her paranoia of her thinking I want her mom.
It didn't help that the little dog jumped in the shower with her mom and attacked her.
She ran naked through the house being chased by the dog with me and my girlfriend
sitting on the couch with me not being able to help it looking at her mom only to look
to my right to see my girlfriend staring me down. "I knew it!"

Even worse I think her mom said to her daughter after the chase
"Sweetie he does not want to have sex with me, now do you?" (Asked to me.)
I paused as it flashed in my mind her mom running around the house, naked.
My girlfriend was staring me down again and her mom shaking her head, (No, No, say No!)
"Oh, no I don't sweetie!" I did, I was in love, but really I can't do something like that
with my girlfriends history! I love my girlfriend and I can't do that to her!
But as it goes I ended up falling for her sister.
A soulmate meant to be, but I was too stupid to know at the time to keep her!
I am sorry and yes I love her also too timelessly!

*****My girlfriend in High school was a ex teen prostitute
in Vegas when she was 13. I believe that she ran away and
someone pimped her in Vegas only for her to be beaten up giving
her a broken jaw, taken home and with a ding dong zoom here is
your daughter kind of thing she was dropped off at the front door.
Whoever did it are bastards even today!

I hooked up with her when she was 15 starting high school
I was 18 myself and way over my head with everything!
It was a emotional support type of relationship.
Like a shotgun wedding. Her dad told me they say 100's
of people got their hands on her and don't break up with her
she can't take rejection. I was her first boyfriend after all that mess!
I was glad she was my girlfriend!

A few years later I got a phone call from some health department
somewhere at 6 am keep in mind at the time I didn't get up until 11 am.
They let me know there was a guy that was with her tested positive
for AIDS and that I should be tested. I said what... ok... and went back
to bed only to wake up at 11 am not sure if that was a dream of not.
I never had sex with her so I was not worried I tested anyway
all was ok! And she is also ok today.

*****I fell for a girl I kept running into my near the final year in high school.
Where ever I went I would see her somewhere in the background.

I was going to talk to her to let her know I was interested in her after
graduation practice, but she had to leave during it.
Everyone looked at her go up the stairs as they where all in place where
they are supposed to be, all but her! I was in love!

So I ended up after graduation looking for her and found her.
We talked a bit and I found out she was going out of state for College.
So really to me at the time this was the last time I would see her, it hurt!

And to the fact that I got booted off going to a big college and I ended
up at a JR college. Most of that time my heart was thinking about her.
It was one of those things like the "Red string of fate" heart wise to me!

I was depressed about it. So there I was sitting in class at the JR college, thinking
about things depressed, I really was thinking about her at the time when she came
walking in and sat down in a class I was in.
She was going to the same college I was and we had the same class together!

We dated in college but when I told her I loved her it bounced like ping pong balls
off her. Again it was not was not recognized. It seems clear to me being how we met
but her thinking was not there!

So from that we started to date for a bit. I showed her how to drive, she had
too much fun and we ended up in a field in the country, I took the keys!
She was not 100% and that is ok I loved her for who she was!
She had a stroke when she was in high school so it did damage.

Her parents at the time had no plans for her, they didn't want her to drive,
they did not teach her anything. I pointed to her she needs to take care of her self
look into people before she trust them being they would see her as a easy target.
Background checks etc she needed to do.

To me that also pointed to why she did not get to a big college.
Not being 100% was not all it but her parents seemed to me to
be dumping her! Letting her fail so she could learn herself!

She went on her way after her time in college and I lost track of her.
But I met her again when I worked at a hotel. She was at a function at the hotel
I was working. I talked to her told her my heart was still there, but still.
I found out she is moving to Chicago, and she still did not see me as
more that what I was!

But we went out one more time. I took her to dinner, then took her home.
This was a depressing day for me, being the heart string was still there and now.

That day I could not take off the day from work to go on a date all day.
I worked at a hotel and it was a big thing they had going on.

When I got there I found out it was a banquet with a famous lady actress from the 80's
I liked to watch. The show was about an Angel that lived in the closet, that would
come out to help a boy deal with things.

Sort of fitting! She was doing the motivational speaking thing there.
During her thing she came up to me and wanted to get my coffee pot so she could
run around to serve coffee to people, being motivational.
I quickly showed her how to do it safely without getting hot coffee on someone.
She later told me I was the first one that let her do it! Thanks she said.

***And I also love a married Gypsy lady I crossed paths with or to say have a
red string of fate with. Still love her and my heart is there as I am ok
with everything. Want to date her knowing that makes her a better person.
Happy landings makes happy takeoffs.
Knowing I need her also! I need a Married woman as she is obligated
to her husband as I am my with old lady. We fit and need each other!
From my past I am ready!

And I have to say I am willing to spend the rest of my life with her.
Because the requirement of that kind of relationship is high so it's
not a short term by the effort! I never intentionally went for short term
in my relationships anyway.

The point of all this? The point it might not of been what I needed but
I love everyone timelessly! Polyamory? Yes I am, I learned from all my past!
Give the Gypsy lady has me froze I can't turn right can't turn left!
It's like Schrodinger's cat! Help she's indecisive?! I need a lover!

I don't look at my past relationships as anything bad in my life.
Love can tear you up and spit you out in pieces if you
don't look in the Mirror and know who to trust and know
you survived it all in your past! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDM-7xUkjuo

So then you know to not to get upset over whatever it was.
And know from all that you are very adapt and you know what
you really need. Rounded are the rocks you learn!

Also sometimes both parties need to Zen out!

~If a problem is fixable, if a situation is such that you can do something
about it, then there is no need to worry. If it's not fixable,
then there is no help in worrying.
There is no benefit in worrying whatsoever. (Dalai Lama)

~The ultimate way is without difficulty; those who
seek it make their own hardship. The true mind is originally
pure; those who exercise it make their own defilment. (Hui-K'ung)

~All things are free-flowing, untrammeled, what bondage is there,
what entanglement? You create your own difficulty and ease therein.
The mind source pervades the ten directions with one continuity; those
of the most excellent faculties understand naturally. (Tzu-hu)

So the point is to say trust yourself and love not hate,
to the point of being inflammatory about it. Why be fake?
In past terms, my significant others had doubts, fears.
At the time I had the same, and of course in the end we asked
as we both are apart. Like both parties sitting in their own box separate,

As in if you are driving the old lady crazy, be real about it.
If she is too old for that shit, or would be in disaster if you cut her out
of your life, then don't! My old lady is really a old lady 25 years older
than I am. It's about balance! She needs something, you fix it,
but knowing she's your old lady so if it didn't work like the last two times,
let it go. Life is too short to hate your EX being if her life span is short
under 10 years to go, what time is there to hate?
"Oh, no. She's not my wife, she's just old lady!"

So from that pit my best view is to never take life serious.
Life is not serious it will run you over it doesn't care otherwise.

What you have in your life makes you happy and things only get better.
Your job is just a job it really does not make you happy.
You can change it but 10 years from now it will be the same
thing you are running away from.

Also if wanted you will have to follow, like A New Day!
And know things only get better.
If not to follow, at least it's known you will! Because they would be worth it!
And im not kidding you! If the partner is worth it, it comes easy to follow!

*Significant others are called that because they are significant!
Or (y) makes (x) the other significant! Vice versa.
(To be good for the other person and that is what matters, the balance!)

That is my tip to others in limbo, like I have been before!
I have more to say but I can't but you get the point.
We all get that from time to time! It will be ok. Learn from it!

In the hotel business I earned my way to a $1.5 million dead peasant insurance
policy on me. I found out because HR talked to me. Wanting to know if I was
worth it being the money they where spending on me. My co-workers called me
Dead man walking! Like the boss would kill me and take the money!
But I have a protected destiny so really I was ok!

I had hard times with my life experiences, as in my dad! In the late 90's me and
my college friends would go out on the weekend one night as I was heading out
I noticed my dad was sitting in his chair eating dinner but he looked green!
I wasn't sure if it was really bad or not. I thought he was just tired exhausted,
not felling good, he will get some rest and feel better, so I went out with my friends.
This was before I had a cell phone. When I got back to the house at 1am.
I found all the lights on and in my dads bathroom was a mess of vomit, blood etc.
Not good I knew something happened and about that time the home phone rang.
It was my sis letting me know what happened they are at the hospital. So off I went.

It turned out my dad was in bad shape, it did a lot of damage but he made it.
He hung on for a long time with my mom and us taking care of him, in time he passed
away and that was ok as his quality of life was really bad for such a man.
He needed peace! He was a oil engineer and came up with a lot of bind blowing stuff.
So this was hard for him and us kids also.

Years later I was watching the Democratic convention on TV and ex president Clinton
was talking. But I noticed he looked green!
So I ran to TV to TV seeing if it was the color on the TV and called a friend asked
if he noticed how green he looked. He said yep green, so I really ended up calling the
FBI at the time. I didn't know who to call about that. I let them know I was real and not
a threat and told them that my dad looked like that before and what happened,
and they might want to get a DR to Clinton to check him out.
You might loose him!

And I guess they did as he is here today. I learned that green look from my dad
and from that in my past saw Clinton like my dad green and that was not good!
So in your life you take a beating and you get more rounded!

And have a lust for life!

Other roads?