Saturday, April 29, 2017

Where have I been, Mirror, Mirror, on the rocks!



I have always been a lover type of person in my relationships!
When I am hooked, I'm hooked! That is not a bad thing, from where I been.
(This is a disclaimer. This story has TMI. Just be aware, it's my pain and growth!
No names are mentioned here!) I'm not a player, just a lover!
 
I don't have hate and I learned to not get upset over temporary issues.
In my past I got upset over temporary issues as all in relationships do,
but I learned it's temporary so I let it go as I look back at my
past relationships in relating to the now. It's called learning.
Like you can love someone wanting better for the partner in that
there is no line to cross as it's all good, balanced and supportive toward the
partner. The balance would be welcomed these days and it's worth it! 
And that needs to go both ways or there will be a hell of a pain!

*****For instance I was with a lady hair dresser for a time in the 1990's.
She barfed on the first date. She smoked weed and liked to go at
gay bars being she had a hard life she was abused by a biker gang lady
that had a death threat on her from testifying in court about them.
She might of been forced to sleep with a frozen pig.
She was a secret wittiness and the biker guy recognized her by
her testimony and called her by name threatening to kill her.

She freaked, so she ended up feeling safe at a gay bar that was her security.
Not one biker would step foot in a gay bar!
Im not gay, she was not gay it was her security to go there.
Every time a guy with leather on walked in the bar she would watch them
out of the corner of her eye. It was that bad!

On the first date at a nice restaurant she ran to the bathroom
and threw-up everywhere. She was like a keeper seeing the back of her
as she was running to the bathroom, then with a Blaaaah, Splat noise she went.
These "Party girls" with their little lipstick purse came running out screaming
with their hands in the air and high heels going tap, tap, tap as they ran out!
The bathroom door was slow to close, so I saw all that from the table I was at.
At the time I wanted to hold up a lighter for her, but didn't have one!
Nervous, high etc she got sick, I took that cougar back to her environment which
was the gay bar all was ok it's her normality there. She told me where she likes to go
thinking I would say hell no, but I accepted her for who she is and
she could not believe it.

As I am I tend to be like a valium so she took me home on the first date.
Keep in mind of her past, a strange man in a waterbed with her passed out
tired, she farted in her sleep. This never happens in life, a lady like her would
be aware of my every move. Nope she slept and farted! And I had to try
not to laugh as I would of shook the waterbed. You don't want to suddenly
wake up tired older cougar. Let sleeping cougars sleep!
She farted in her sleep what would Sigmund Freud say?
Trust, that is the point!

I had to carry her over my shoulder to the car once. The bar owner kept calling me
at work letting me know she was smashed that night. She got too drunk that night
and I took her home put her in her bed. She mumbled before she passed out
something like if I stick it in her @$$ use the gel. I kissed her and went back to
my place. She didn't know what she was saying! Significant others don't
BLANK you in the BLANK when you are passed out drunk!
Her room mate was a transvestite / now called transgender, she took care of him
like her son. There is a amount of fairness and respect that was shown by that.

My relationship with the hairdresser didn't workout but that was ok.
This was one of the fun / humanistic relationships I had.

*****Also in the 1990's I had a friend and his wife take me out to dinner at
Denny's so they could talk to me about...  Well my friend's wife told me they
wanted to have sex with me. And some guy behind us in the other seat said
"I'll be damned, a male unicorn!" I replied "Hay... I'm not gay!"
I didn't expect that and It is funny that I can say
"I'M A UNICORN, BUT I'M NOT GAY!"
That is not me, so I found it funny that they said that to me!
They where still my friends but I let them know it's not me!
*****I dated a lady I met on the internet. I also met her before I met her. 
Red string of fate! I first met her when I was on the school bus in high school. 
Her and her kids where going backward into a intersection in their car with a 
T-top after doing a burnout. It was a cloudy day and when they went flying 
backward they stopped in the middle of the intersection when there was a 
opening in the cloud and a beam of light shined on their car and only their car. 
She put her hands in the light and waved them around before they took off again. 
I am glad I dated her but I didn't know if we where meant to be. 
I never thought of these things like that before. On the bus I knew it was like a 
spot light on her but I never understood back then. 

*****I dated a lady that was a head lady in the federal credit union.
She had a short life span due to a enlarged heart. She was in need of a 
heart transplant. I was dating her to make life better for her.
It was a love and support relationship as she had heart problems
and a short life... Take into your life what is good for you life's short!

*****Also had a lady tell me "We like you." "My other personality likes you
and I trust her so im ok with it!"

*****Also you could say I had a date with a married lady when I was 10.
When I was in my elementary time 1979 I think,
I remember a teacher taking me to a bar to have a coke to also meet
her boyfriend or husband. It was something about her pay check
to pay the rent, she brought me along. Nothing bad!
That was really cool it was life in the 70's!
 
*****I fell for a married lady who was a Angie Dickinson lookalike, my boss
when I worked at a Hotel. She went to a salon once and fixed her hair.
It caused me problems at work! It was to the point her co-worker said
something like "Look at him, your driving him nuts!"
She came over and poked me, and said OK, we need to fix this.
She went back to the salon and had her hair toned down.
Many knew I was in love with her and the hair issue was just proof of it.

People at work knew I fell for her, and we where sort of notarized by a coworker
telling me damn she's yelling at you at work and your not even her husband!
"Stop standing up for my husband, stop it, stop it!"
I was for her best interest because she's my best interest, I was for her
because I did need her also! I looked forward to working with her!

The hotel put a obvious hidden camera in the wall once. A few months later I fixed it.
I knew it bugged her and I got sick of it also so enough! I covered the hole with butter
being the color of the butter was the same color of the wall and respectfully the same as
her hair color. (Only I would notice something like that. When I get it bad I get it bad!)
Anyway the butter worked no more camera in the wall and no one said anything.

*****I also dated a lady who's mom smoked hash. The little dog even got
into it and made it psychotic. She showed me her "Mom's stash of hash!"
She caught her past boyfriend having sex with her mom in a bad place and
saw everything she had a total breakdown. Her mom was smoking too much at
the time and didn't know what was going on. I was her first boyfriend after that and
I had to deal with her paranoia of her thinking I want her mom.
It didn't help that the little dog jumped in the shower with her mom and attacked her.
She ran naked through the house being chased by the dog with me and my girlfriend
sitting on the couch with me not being able to help it looking at her mom only to look
to my right to see my girlfriend staring me down. "I knew it!"

Even worse I think her mom said to her daughter after the chase
"Sweetie he does not want to have sex with me, now do you?" (Asked to me.)
I paused as it flashed in my mind her mom running around the house, naked.
My girlfriend was staring me down again and her mom shaking her head, (No, No, say No!)
"Oh, no I don't sweetie!" I did, I was in love, but really I can't do something like that
with my girlfriends history! I love my girlfriend and I can't do that to her!
But as it goes I ended up falling for her sister.
A soulmate meant to be, but I was too stupid to know at the time to keep her!
I am sorry and yes I love her also too timelessly!

*****My girlfriend in High school was a ex teen prostitute
in Vegas when she was 13. I believe that she ran away and
someone pimped her in Vegas only for her to be beaten up giving
her a broken jaw, taken home and with a ding dong zoom here is
your daughter kind of thing she was dropped off at the front door.
Whoever did it are bastards even today!

I hooked up with her when she was 15 starting high school
I was 18 myself and way over my head with everything!
It was a emotional support type of relationship.
Like a shotgun wedding. Her dad told me they say 100's
of people got their hands on her and don't break up with her
she can't take rejection. I was her first boyfriend after all that mess!
I was glad she was my girlfriend!

A few years later I got a phone call from some health department
somewhere at 6 am keep in mind at the time I didn't get up until 11 am.
They let me know there was a guy that was with her tested positive
for AIDS and that I should be tested. I said what... ok... and went back
to bed only to wake up at 11 am not sure if that was a dream of not.
I never had sex with her so I was not worried I tested anyway
all was ok! And she is also ok today.

*****I fell for a girl I kept running into my near the final year in high school.
Where ever I went I would see her somewhere in the background.

I was going to talk to her to let her know I was interested in her after
graduation practice, but she had to leave during it.
Everyone looked at her go up the stairs as they where all in place where
they are supposed to be, all but her! I was in love!

So I ended up after graduation looking for her and found her.
We talked a bit and I found out she was going out of state for College.
So really to me at the time this was the last time I would see her, it hurt!

And to the fact that I got booted off going to a big college and I ended
up at a JR college. Most of that time my heart was thinking about her.
It was one of those things like the "Red string of fate" heart wise to me!

I was depressed about it. So there I was sitting in class at the JR college, thinking
about things depressed, I really was thinking about her at the time when she came
walking in and sat down in a class I was in.
She was going to the same college I was and we had the same class together!

We dated in college but when I told her I loved her it bounced like ping pong balls
off her. Again it was not was not recognized. It seems clear to me being how we met
but her thinking was not there!

So from that we started to date for a bit. I showed her how to drive, she had
too much fun and we ended up in a field in the country, I took the keys!
She was not 100% and that is ok I loved her for who she was!
She had a stroke when she was in high school so it did damage.

Her parents at the time had no plans for her, they didn't want her to drive,
they did not teach her anything. I pointed to her she needs to take care of her self
look into people before she trust them being they would see her as a easy target.
Background checks etc she needed to do.

To me that also pointed to why she did not get to a big college.
Not being 100% was not all it but her parents seemed to me to
be dumping her! Letting her fail so she could learn herself!

She went on her way after her time in college and I lost track of her.
But I met her again when I worked at a hotel. She was at a function at the hotel
I was working. I talked to her told her my heart was still there, but still.
I found out she is moving to Chicago, and she still did not see me as
more that what I was!

But we went out one more time. I took her to dinner, then took her home.
This was a depressing day for me, being the heart string was still there and now.

That day I could not take off the day from work to go on a date all day.
I worked at a hotel and it was a big thing they had going on.

When I got there I found out it was a banquet with a famous lady actress from the 80's
I liked to watch. The show was about an Angel that lived in the closet, that would
come out to help a boy deal with things.

Sort of fitting! She was doing the motivational speaking thing there.
During her thing she came up to me and wanted to get my coffee pot so she could
run around to serve coffee to people, being motivational.
I quickly showed her how to do it safely without getting hot coffee on someone.
She later told me I was the first one that let her do it! Thanks she said.

***And I also love a married Gypsy lady I crossed paths with or to say have a
red string of fate with. Still love her and my heart is there as I am ok
with everything. Want to date her knowing that makes her a better person.
Happy landings makes happy takeoffs.

Knowing I need her also! I need a Married woman as she is obligated
to her husband as I am my with old lady. We fit and need each other!
From my past I am ready!

It is a world of pain if there is no talk just a wall of
indecisiveness and torment. Well she is a married notorious woman 
and that is ok it's human to take care of your needs!
But there is the need to talk at least to say calm your ass down! 

The point of all this? The point it might not of been what I needed but
I love everyone timelessly! Polyamory? Yes I am, I learned from all my past!
Give the Gypsy lady has me froze I can't turn right can't turn left!
It's like Schrodinger's cat! Help she's indecisive?! 

I don't look at my past relationships as anything bad in my life.
Love can tear you up and spit you out in pieces if you
don't look in the Mirror and know who to trust and know
you survived it all in your past! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDM-7xUkjuo

Also sometimes both parties need to Zen out!

~If a problem is fixable, if a situation is such that you can do something
about it, then there is no need to worry. If it's not fixable,
then there is no help in worrying.
There is no benefit in worrying whatsoever. (Dalai Lama)

~The ultimate way is without difficulty; those who
seek it make their own hardship. The true mind is originally
pure; those who exercise it make their own defilment. (Hui-K'ung)

~All things are free-flowing, untrammeled, what bondage is there,
what entanglement? You create your own difficulty and ease therein.
The mind source pervades the ten directions with one continuity; those
of the most excellent faculties understand naturally. (Tzu-hu)

So the point is to say trust yourself and love, being a lover is worth it!
to the point of being inflammatory about it. Why be fake?
In past terms, my significant others had doubts, fears.
At the time I had the same, and of course in the end we asked
as we both are apart. Like both parties sitting in their own box separate,

As in if you are driving the old lady crazy, be real about it.
If she is too old for that shit, or would be in disaster if you cut her out
of your life, then don't! My old lady is really a old lady 25 years older
than I am. It's about balance! She needs something, you fix it,
but knowing she's your old lady so if it didn't work like the last two times,
let it go. Life is too short to hate your EX being if her life span is short
under 10 years to go, what time is there to hate?
"Oh, no. She's not my wife, she's just old lady!"

So from that pit my best view is to never take life serious.
Life is not serious it will run you over it doesn't care otherwise.

What you have in your life makes you happy and things only get better.
Your job is just a job it really does not make you happy.
You can change it but 10 years from now it will be the same
thing you are running away from.

Also if wanted you will have to follow, like A New Day!
And know things only get better.
If not to follow, at least it's known you will! Because they would be worth it!
And im not kidding you! If the partner is worth it, it comes easy to follow!

*Significant others are called that because they are significant!
Or (y) makes (x) the other significant! Vice versa.
(To be good for the other person and that is what matters, the balance!)

That is my tip to others in limbo, like I have been before!
I have more to say but I can't but you get the point.
We all get that from time to time! It will be ok. Learn from it!

In the hotel business I earned my way to a $1.5 million dead peasant insurance
policy on me. I found out because HR talked to me. Wanting to know if I was
worth it being the money they where spending on me. My co-workers called me
Dead man walking! Like the boss would kill me and take the money!
But I have a protected destiny so really I was ok!

I had hard times with my life experiences, as in my dad! In the late 90's me and
my college friends would go out on the weekend one night as I was heading out
I noticed my dad was sitting in his chair eating dinner but he looked green!
I wasn't sure if it was really bad or not. I thought he was just tired exhausted,
not felling good, he will get some rest and feel better, so I went out with my friends.
This was before I had a cell phone. When I got back to the house at 1am.
I found all the lights on and in my dads bathroom was a mess of vomit, blood etc.
Not good I knew something happened and about that time the home phone rang.
It was my sis letting me know what happened they are at the hospital. So off I went.

It turned out my dad was in bad shape, it did a lot of damage but he made it.
He hung on for a long time with my mom and us taking care of him, in time he passed
away and that was ok as his quality of life was really bad for such a man.
He needed peace! He was a oil engineer and came up with a lot of bind blowing stuff.
So this was hard for him and us kids also.

Years later I was watching the Democratic convention on TV and ex president Clinton
was talking. But I noticed he looked green!
So I ran to TV to TV seeing if it was the color on the TV and called a friend asked
if he noticed how green he looked. He said yep green, so I really ended up calling the
FBI at the time. I didn't know who to call about that. I let them know I was real and not
a threat and told them that my dad looked like that before and what happened,
and they might want to get a DR to Clinton to check him out.
You might loose him!

And I guess they did as he is here today. I learned that green look from my dad
and from that in my past saw Clinton like my dad green and that was not good!
So in your life you take a beating and you get more rounded!

And have a lust for life!

Other roads?



Thursday, April 27, 2017

Messing with NAFTA and the Sadomasochist

It's known that a fetish is a fulfillment, a keystone of life, it's ok but...
My friend in college always wondered why people like to make things bad
for themselves. Want low taxes when they need the food stamps or need
the help paying their rent etc. Being the poor takes in more tax help than they
pay out in taxes. Or the just do without shown by they car they drive from the
80's with no bumper, or they walk down the road with no car like a
third world country. Looks like they are being taken care of to me!
Not a tax burden to the state as there is no taxes for their help anyway
and they do without!

"Why take things away that you need???? Sadomasochism!!!! They like it!!!!"
Well it's true! Overall in Oklahoma people here eat less fruit etc.
But noted is the cost as the low pay makes it not a staple for the household!
No NAFTA is higher prices and as I seen less on the shelf at Walmart!
Most of fruit and veggies are from Mexico so... No loss for people in
Oklahoma here, but for others well... But they will go for it even if it gives
them less food! And they expect you to suffer just like they do then get
confused why you don't want to suffer. Like you are to be their best friend even
though their voting habits makes it bad for everyone, like thank you for making
life bad for me whip again thank you! Thus the sadomasochism part!!!!
Just be their friend so you can suffer along with them! Not!!!

"1. Oklahoma ranks dead last among the 50 states in fruit consumption."

Anyway you see it Walmart is looking to be a bit costly and bare.
The Dollar tree would be like the $5 Dollar tree or totality gone!
Cars go higher, Jobs tank as why make those things, they are not buying
because it cost too much?

But oh well live around it get out of the way and let them have their
sadomasochism! Don't let it be your hell, just go around them have some
adaptation and let them enjoy their misery! Well you can't make them not!!!!
A fetish is a fulfillment, Sadomasochist voters are not! A lover, is to love,
hate is just hate it is best to go for the gold not the crap in life as it effects
everyone else also!

~~~~~Messing with NAFTA: 14 million American jobs are on the line
If those avocados, cars and bacon become more expensive, American shoppers will have less money to spend on other items, risking millions of retail jobs.

In other words, the ripple effects on jobs from terminating NAFTA would likely be widespread.

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Humanistic Psychology - Social Economics

In college I never limited my education but I pushed on Psychology as my major.
In point Humanistic Psychology. I am not a Behaviorist to the fact that is just a
result of environment guiding the behavior. Overtime the positive or negative
reinforcement becomes daunting to the subject and so the subject would move on
to higher and better things by free will because the need for self-actualization.

To me I see it as workers running for better pay. In that brings up a good point
that no man is an island. Meaning everyone needs each other.
The old economic view that if you want something you go find a better job
and work for it. Is just simple minded and not true these days!
Others economic state guides the market in reality. Sears, K-mart etc is a victim
of the lack of sales. Why? It was not as bad in 1925 when it started.
Low wages, low buying power today? Well Yes!!!
Applebee's is a victim of low wages and the point of no value vs the cost and
value of all you can eat places at cheaper prices.

The Golden Corral has high labor cost food delivery and etc.
It's the Walmart of buffets but is prone to be priced out of market also!
There are many ads on TV pushing the The Golden Corral as I see as
bring in the consumers to keep up with the cost vs peoples wages.

So to work at a place and expecting to move up the ladder or get a raise
when they are on shaky grounds depending on the consumers they are working
to bring in is shady! Also noted in small towns is the issue of not getting raises
or being able to move up the ladder. Works hard makes the same pay!
Pointing at the amount of minimum wage retirees in town retiring on low wage 
growth from their past jobs. Points to doing better for yourself without others is fail. 
And a good point of Humanistic Psychology. 

"Primarily, this type of therapy encourages a self-awareness and mindfulness that 
helps the client change their state of mind and behaviour from one set of reactions 
to a healthier one with more productive self-awareness and thoughtful actions. 
Essentially, this approach allows the merging of mindfulness and behavioural therapy, 
with positive social support." A positive social support is also negative social non 
support as everyone stays home with no money killing most of the stores in town.

So Humanistic psychology is a good view of the economic state of today.
"5. Human beings are intentional, aim at goals, are aware that they cause future
events, and seek meaning, value, and creativity." Pointing at staying home being
broke will effect in hardships and failure for businesses. But is a positive value as
the lack of sales pushes the need to fix the issue of low wages as most would
do without and be a sore thumb walking in town without cars or driving cars with 
no bumpers, scaring off all the rich people coming to town.
Like a poverty crusade showing the need for better pay!

Or if one bill they have takes more money being they make the same pay.
It takes more of their money so there is less money for anything else as they 
cut back their spending to compensate the higher cost bill.
So the one / self affects the many! We are not islands!

~~~~~Humanistic psychology
The humanistic psychology perspective is summarized by five core principles or postulates of humanistic psychology first articulated in an article written by James Bugental in 1964 and adapted by Tom Greening, psychologist and long-time editor of the Journal of Humanistic Psychology. The five basic principles of humanistic psychology are:
  1. Human beings, as human, supersede the sum of their parts. They cannot be reduced to components.
  2. Human beings have their existence in a uniquely human context, as well as in a cosmic ecology.
  3. Human beings are aware and are aware of being aware - i.e., they are conscious. Human consciousness always includes an awareness of oneself in the context of other people.
  4. Human beings have the ability to make choices and therefore have responsibility.
  5. Human beings are intentional, aim at goals, are aware that they cause future events, and seek meaning, value, and creativity.
While humanistic psychology is a specific division within the American Psychological Association (Division 32), humanistic psychology is not so much a discipline within psychology as a perspective on the human condition that informs psychological research and practice.

~~~~~Characteristics of Humanistic Psychology
1. Non-judgmental
Humanistic therapy is an approach to counseling where the helping professional does not judge what is being shared by a client – regardless of the material being disclosed. 

2. Empathetic
A key feature of person centered therapy is empathy. Counselors adopting a humanistic approach to counseling often join their clients’ when exploring emotionally painful issues, which are sometimes referred to as a psychic injury.

3. Non-Pathological
Most humanistic counseling professionals put aside the clinical jargon and diagnosis and dial into the essence of the client. Many helping professionals using a person centered approach encourage the client to focus on their strengths (aka strength based approach).

4. Focus on the self
Humanistic psychological approaches involved the helping professional assisting the client focus on the “self”. In other words, the goal of therapy is to promote the client’s expression of feelings, thoughts and emotions through dialogue. In some cases, expressive outlets are encouraged, such as writing, painting, drawing and even acting (aka psycho-drama).

5. Existential
A final characteristic of humanistic psychology is its existential components. Existential therapists help clients work through restrictive patterns and approaches by encouraging them to express themselves through creativity and self-expression. Four existential dimensions are commonly explored as part of existential infusion: 1. Physical, 2. Psychological, 3. Social and Spiritual.

Friday, April 21, 2017

Oklahoma in budget hell need Kale for Flux

As many know the Republican run states are the worse on life
and budget. It shows by the lack of! Just look at what is missing!
How the people are living, their education etc. 
There is nothing hated more by college professors than unprepared
kids for college because of a low education budget.
They hold back the whole class as the professor has to stop class to 
bring the kid up to speed. Not fair to the kids that paid money for 
the class and have to see their time go for the unprepared kid!
http://hechingerreport.org/many-who-pass-state-high-school-graduation-tests-show-up-to-college-unprepared

All of this points at what the labor pool will be like for America.
There are many corporations and small oil, big oil worried about
the labor force coming out of Oklahoma from more cuts and cuts!

To such a point small oil wants the taxes to go up on oil being it is too low.
And if it's a concern of that they take action to do something big oil does 
see the red flag also! What are they going to have from not doing so!
People doing without, that makes no one money! "Trailer park job candidates"
because of the lack of everything not able to get a better life, too low!
Poverty makes everything BAD for EVERYONE! 


"A group of small oil and natural gas producers in Oklahoma have formed an 
alliance and are asking the Legislature to increase the gross production tax 
back to 7 percent, saying the industry is committed to helping solve 
the state's budget crisis."
https://www.usnews.com/news/best-states/oklahoma/articles/2017-04-03/oil-gas-producers-ask-oklahoma-legislature-to-increase-tax

Action has to be made because of all of this. Not doing so effects the labor force!
Cutting taxes does what it does and here we are! Low taxes = No money!
Even the poor takes in more tax dollars than they pay out in taxes!
Less money to be taxed is not much of tax for them. They would lose more help
than they would get with a tax return! So raising taxes being the poor will pay less
taxes as they don't have a $1,000,000 house or a $30,000 truck to pay higher
takes on. If it cost too much the poor will just not buy it buying something cheaper
and pay less taxes with it!

"TOPEKA, Kan. Kansas’ Republican-led Legislature voted Friday to roll back
a deep tax cut championed by Republican Gov. Sam Brownback, conceding it helped
put the state in dire financial straits and setting up a possible showdown with him."

But I would not like a poverty tax! A cigarette tax is just taking money away from
the poor so it's less money to be spent elsewhere this is hard on local towns!
It would better to tax a better stable tax resource. Tax Chardonnay being the cost
of it anyway vs the poor buying Pabst Blue Ribbon depending what you 
have to buy what with!

So it's time for the states to eat Kale for Flux!
10. Kale is a great detox food.

You can help by calling your state senator to let them know you are
concerned about your kids future, will they be prepared for college
after high school? What kind of job do they think my kid would get
with less of a high school education?

Monday, April 17, 2017

Low taxes at work and In praise of idleness

Is this inflammatory that people and government in red states are
against it's own not even thinking about the being all connected thinking?
If you are in denial and just go with it, it's still there it's like putting on
a blindfold and walking across the highway pretending there are no
cars there. Isolationist, Reductionist thinking is prone to natural selection.
If you make nothing you have nothing. "Make children wages, live like a child."
And so we all go down a victim of low wages! Like in the more people that crash
their cars and still drive them there is a cost as the insurance companies pass
the cost to the consumers as they are in a business to make money not loose it!

Being against your own, makes all against all. You can't go forward if you are
going backward. The low life is not a life and should not be respected as
it makes all lives lower! As in not being able to afford life and without life
things get bad. "Live in a cornfield, your mind is only mushed as the cornfield
that you live in!" You do get what you pay for!

A child can't pay a DR bill, rent, car payment, car insurance etc.
So adults making children wages must work two children waged jobs.
That is like working one normal job but being stuck at work for 16 hours
in that doesn't help the family and others.
I stand by Bertrand Russell in praise of idleness in the jobs and wages part.
"What people who say such things forget is that what a man earns he usually
spends, and in spending he gives employment." But making children wages?
Make nothing you got nothing! And helps no one else and makes things mushy!

The issue is the low pay making the inability to grow out of it
With a kid you know you want the kid to go to a good college
like Yale being it has more resources than a JR college.
People that go to Yale make more than people that went to a JR college!
"Your education is only worth the paper it's printed on! If you think not then
you might be standing in a cornfield with a college degree!" Think about it!

So the point is everything being low making it low for everyone
because they all can't afford it! In that also points to the lack of
education in it's not because they are lazy it's just a matter of who
will pay for it everyone makes children wages!

Wage growth does not happen in red states. That is why there is so much
minimum wage retirees in red states. There are a lot of elderly people
that say they are on a fixed income but fail to say it's at $5.35 type pay.

So the whole thing is just a mess of low everything and who pays for that?
Normally that would make a tax burden and a need to fix it by raising the pay.
But people in red states do without! "Oklahoma is a low tax burden state.
Yes, but look around there, it looks like they are being taken care of with their
car with no bumpers, walking down the road with no car. Living at home with
no AC / Heat! And that effects as the power company has to lower it's spending
like the consumer does because they can't afford it because of less money coming in!

Also when you look at healthcare and the issue with the ACA having many sick
people getting on it, because they are not a tax burden doing without.
I believe Obama should of sued the states for making a burden to healthcare
for red states not supporting the people. But the doing without part I guess stops that!

So really the people in red states make it bad for themselves pushing others views
of red states being sadomasochist voters, because they like their misery.

"Can't make them not!" That is true, as a whole but is not the point as those things
do take care itself as the doing without life makes everyone do without.
You can make it but they can't afford it! Making businesses come to town only for
them to close because even the workers can't afford the prices along with others.
Like making a stake house come to town that the workers couldn't even afford with
their pay thus having a employee discount but not at the other high dollar places
so it all goes down being most make low pay!

But that is ok. It's like burning down the weeds to make room for grass to grow.
They have to raise the pay sometime so everyone in town would have money to burn
not just a few people! Noting the "In praise of idleness" part!
True and something to think about!

It's not fair for store owners to lower their prices to match the poverty wages
of the town. Consumer based pricing, that is death! As a store that has no money
coming in has less money to give to the workers, unless you have a money tree
in the back of the store that you shake to get money for your workers paycheck.

Friday, April 14, 2017

Knowledge of the Absolute

"Action cannot destroy ignorance, for it is not in conflict with or opposed to ignorance. Knowledge does verily destroy ignorance as light destroys deep darkness. Action cannot destroy ignorance, for it is not in conflict with or opposed to ignorance. Knowledge does verily destroy ignorance as light destroys deep darkness.  The Soul appears to be finite because of ignorance. When ignorance is destroyed the Self which does not admit of any multiplicity truly reveals itself by itself: like the Sun when the clouds pass away."

In life one wonders of where one is placed for,
for what reason or timing to be for.
What are the odds of meeting someone far away then to
meet again in in a far away place. You would say it to be destiny,
the red string of fate but it's a unknown but too far big.

One life to love could lead to a direction to another life to love.
But then love is far and close in all the same!

So... The Knowledge of the Absolute?

This was something I was thinking about like in my life.
In school I was always the one you came to if you had a problem.
Talking to me made the light come on in your head, or I said something
that pointed to a answer. So to me pointing to knowledge of the absolute
is possible to be absolute. The more I have thrown at me the more I will
give out to you in the answers. If I do a search on the internet for something
I tend to run into something I posted. Being it is me searching, I am my own best
answer and I hate that because I need to grow and have knowledge!
I'm not an Island!

Back when I was 7+ I think, a homeless guy gave me 
something like LSD or something. Well I tripped out and saw the Machine Elves.
They attacked me with knowledge and I mean attacked! I was taking the
knowledge in when they started to question and hold back when they
stopped and asked me if I could take this it's a life time of knowledge / advanced.
I was upset that they stopped and wanting to know why they stopped being
concerned about my well being when they attacked me with knowledge
in the first place. We went on. I was able to take all of the info!
To me that is just a part that makes me who I am.

But the absolute is the absolute, a point a end and a beginning.
Something to hope for in ones life and in this time! Think about it!!!!!


Chapter 7: Knowledge of the Absolute

TEXT 7
mattah parataram nanyat
kincid asti dhananjaya
mayi sarvam idam protam
sutre mani-gana iva
SYNONYMS
mattah—beyond Myself; parataram—superior; na—not; anyat—anything else; kincit—something; asti—there is; dhananjaya—O conquerer of wealth; mayi—in Me; sarvam—all that be; idam—which we see; protam—strung; sutre—on a thread; mani-ganah—pearls; iva—likened.

TRANSLATION
O conquerer of wealth [Arjuna], there is no Truth superior to Me. Everything rests upon Me, as pearls are strung on a thread.

PURPORT
There is a common controversy over whether the Supreme Absolute Truth is personal or impersonal. As far as Bhagavad-gita is concerned, the Absolute Truth is the Personality of Godhead Sri Krsna, and this is confirmed in every step. In this verse, in particular, it is stressed that the Absolute Truth is a person. That the Personality of Godhead is the Supreme Absolute Truth is also the affirmation of the Brahma-samhita: isvarah paramah krsnah sac-cid-ananda-vigrahah; that is, the Supreme Absolute Truth Personality of Godhead is Lord Krsna, who is the primeval Lord, the reservoir of all pleasure, Govinda, and the eternal form of complete bliss and knowledge. These authorities leave no doubt that the Absolute Truth is the Supreme Person, the cause of all causes. The impersonalist, however, argues on the strength of the Vedic version given in the Svetasvatara Upanisad: tato yad uttarataram tad arupam anamayam ya etad vidur amrtas te bhavanti athetare duhkham evapi yanti. "In the material world Brahma, the primeval living entity within the universe, is understood to be the supreme amongst the demigods, human beings and lower animals. But beyond Brahma there is the Transcendence who has no material form and is free from all material contaminations. Anyone who can know Him also becomes transcendental, but those who do not know Him suffer the miseries of the material world."

The impersonalist puts more stress on the word arupam. But this arupam is not impersonal. It indicates the transcendental form of eternity, bliss and knowledge as described in the Brahma-samhita quoted above. Other verses in the Svetasvatara Upanisad substantiate this as follows:

vedaham etam purusam mahantam aditya-varnam tamasah parastat
tam eva vidvan amrta iha bhavati nanyah pantha vidyate ayanaya
yasmat param naparam asti kincid yasmannaniyo na jyayo 'sti kincit

"I know that Supreme Personality of Godhead who is transcendental to all material conceptions of darkness. Only he who knows Him can transcend the bonds of birth and death. There is no way for liberation other than this knowledge of that Supreme Person.

"There is no truth superior to that Supreme Person because He is the supermost. He is smaller than the smallest, and He is greater than the greatest. He is situated as a silent tree, and He illumines the transcendental sky, and as a tree spreads its roots, He spreads His extensive energies."

From these verses one concludes that the Supreme Absolute Truth is the Supreme Personality of Godhead who is all-pervading by His multi-energies, both material and spiritual.

Monday, April 10, 2017

I want something just like this - Pursuit of better



You might see it from your own life from where you have been.
There is a point in life to want better as it's known life is sort and
you never know.

You also need to ask what is good for you.
What do you have to give but just sits there stagnating. Really that is sick!
That is the point that I see in my life also. So this story is to point to get up and
decide on something for the better. And know what is good and better for you!
Let's all grow! We all where kids then we grow up only to always grow up as it
is a never ending thing called life!

(*Funny, note the video looks like me when I was a kid...)
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Friday, April 7, 2017

Start Again



It's always a good day to start again. A New Day! Just look at what it would
be like if you didn't start again. Heading your life / career into zombie land!
If you want to be a zombie then you might as well get it over with, just
dump your diplomas and works in a box and put them in a middle school
basement next to the box of trophies from years past.

Really no one cares about those things! It would be better to live!
Well what is better looking at your wall of insanity full of diplomas
and works when you are 70 with no one caring about them but you.
Or have a photo there of you and your lover riding a bike together naked
at the burning man festival. Something to think about!

But the point is to start again and find what is best for you regardless!
We all learn from our past and grow... That is how we grow anyway!
Life is short it's best to grab life by the horns as it's about your happiness!
Walking down the road together into the sunset is better than not!

~~~~~10 Tools for Restarting Your Life
For many, finding their way through the next year will feel like starting over. Not a completely horrible prospect, but the workload can be daunting. Here are some tips to help you create some new beginnings and make your life a little more emotionally fit in the process.
  1. Starting over is not the same as recouping from a failure. It is a new beginning, and you have gained experience and knowledge to help you reach your goals. Reignite your passion by imagining what it will feel like when you achieve the desired result.
  2. Moving through life is like climbing stairs. You go up a step or two, and then you level off and you may go down a step, but you are still higher than you were. That’s the process of life (and therapy) nothing is ever a straight shot. Have some patience with yourself and with your newfound direction.
  3. You can create a whole new life if you want it. You just have to approach it in the right way. Sometimes little ideas can turn into big things. Visualize a positive outcome for your issue. Medical doctors recommend visualization to patients with chronic and potentially fatal illnesses. If it can help them, it can do the same for you. 
  4. Endings are not necessarily bad things. Even if you lost your job, savings or home, what comes to you in the future may be better than what you had. Sometimes the phoenix has to burn, so it can rise again.
  5. Starting over may feel scary, but it can be a cause for celebration. Think of it as exciting, and many of your anxious feelings will begin to fade. The truth is that anxiety and excitement feel exactly the same to the body. It’s our minds that make it scary versus exhilarating.
  6. Remember that your future is not governed by your past. No matter what has happened in your life, you can find a way to make things a little better for yourself, and hopefully for those around you as well.
  7. Having to start over is different from choosing to start over. For many whose lives are still in chaos because of the trying times we are in, starting over is not a choice. It can be hard to accept support from others. If you find it difficult to take that in, just promise yourself that you will return the favor and do something to “pay it forward” as soon as possible.
  8. Healthy alternatives to negative lifestyle patterns abound. If you can’t stop a bad habit, start by cutting back. It’s okay to give yourself a little time to moderate or stop something that’s hurting you.
  9. Starting over is about creating and reaching new goals. We are happiest when we’re moving toward a goal. It’s not all about the end result, in fact when you do achieve a dream you must find a new one as soon as possible in order to stay emotionally fit. Think about it this way, you can either be green and growing or ripe and rotting. Which do you prefer?
  10. Starting over is about giving yourself a chance at real happiness. You will have to be brave and get good at learning new things, but how bad can that be? At the very worst, you will acquire the skills you need to start on the next project. 
Finding ways to begin anew will give you energy. The excitement of moving toward what you want will also bring you happiness. Just start small and don’t put too much pressure on yourself, you’ll get there sooner than you think.