Wednesday, January 7, 2026

What's on Your Mind?

In any past whatever relationship feelings, love desire the normal things in a abnormal world there is the shhh thing like a confidentiality. Well like the feeling for a married woman with some baggage leaving you holding the bag not wanting her to leave at the time. The "Hurt over a married woman" thing is real. But you know there is that saying about confidentiality agreements. "Confidentiality agreements are to protect the careers of the guilty." At least what I learned in college about them. Because you don't want to be responsible for the divorces so you know you have to! Got to do whats best for your past love!

"Responsibility in a relationship means owning your actions, words, and emotions, fostering trust, while over-responsibility is taking on your partner's feelings or problems, leading to burnout and enabling them, with healthy responsibility focusing on self-care and accountability for your impact, not their reactions." - AI quote.

The point is for anyone out in the mess to note to have responsibility in the frying pan you might be in. Be fair and open and be cool it will be ok!

Not vaccanated just let things happen so maimed

Did you know "Vaccines were developed to protect people from dangerous and often fatal diseases. These diseases remain a threat. Vaccines are safe and effective protection. Vaccination in childhood prevents serious illness and lifelong disability from certain vaccine-preventable diseases (VPDs). People not vaccinated as children are vulnerable to VPDs and their consequences as adults." https://www.immunize.org/wp-content/uploads/catg.d/p4017.pdf

In the wealthiest country in the world to not protect your child like going backward, backward thinker reductionist going back to the 1950 where they let their kids die because many kids died pushes the need to do better not to go back to those days! No?

~~~~Overall, today is much safer than 1950.  That’s probably no surprise to anyone who knows basic economic history.  What’s particularly interesting is that safety gains are especially large for younger kids.  The mortality rate for kids under 5 was almost five times greater in 1950, 3.7 times greater for kids 5-14, and 2.2 times greater for 15-24 year olds. https://www.econlib.org/archives/2009/08/modernity_as_a.html

~~~~In 1945, there were 12 Grecians suffering from polio. More than half the men, women, and children attacked by polio recovered with no enduring affects; 29% were left with a slight residual paralysis, 18% remained handicapped, and 3% died. It was most fatal to children under the age of 10, such as Ronald Gammeriello of North Greece Road who contracted polio when he was one and died from it at age 4. https://greecehistoricalsociety.org/tag/childrens-health-in-the-1950s 

*Must note a practice in those days was to put the sick child with the not sick child so the non sick kid gets immunity maiming both possibly. Sickness causes harm. The point why it's said they let their children die!

Get your kid the vaccines! 

Wednesday, December 24, 2025

In the life of things. The time I had accidental skin contact Fentanyl whatever it was.

It's noted "It is a common myth that casual contact with fentanyl powder can cause an immediate overdose. Fentanyl is not easily absorbed through the skin, and an overdose from accidental skin contact is highly unlikely. It would take hours to days of constant, direct, and extreme skin exposure for an overdose to occur." https://doh.wa.gov/community-and-environment/opioids/fentanyl-exposure-public-places

Back in the 90's my partner at the time all I knew was she smoked weed. But after I had a bad reaction to something that was more than the weed I kind of realized she was a crackhead. Explained why she look so bad after she took off her makeup. I never thought of that at the time!

This was the 90s so whatever I got on me was like strong as Fentanyl. I was at her place after we woo-ho I had to go to work later that day so I guessed I must of stepped on one of her pills by the bed and got in my sock. So when I got home cleaned up and got dressed for work banquet server I put on the same socks. 

So in about 3ish hours at work at a hotel a banquet in my Tux for work after I served most getting to the desert so I garbed the coffee pot, when it like started to shake all by it's self like it was possessed but noticed my arm was shaking involuntary. So made it to the tray to put down the coffee when my whole spinal cord was like moving like how a fish does. It hurt bad so I didn't have time to make it to the kitchen I ended up going into the fire exit Stairwell.

When I got in I pressed my back against the wall to hold my back in place. And just laid there on my side in my Tux going like ack ack ack! Remembering in college the professor in the Drug class I took and the video I saw in class and was his favorite GIF thing to attach to a E-mail if you messed up bad on a paper in class letting you know. A 90's internet thing. I also remembered the evil Micky mouse video in the 90's so I had like a high and low from that drug Micky Mouse was in my head! Funny I thought laying there LOL and ack ack ack at the same time! After a while things got better where I started to be aware that it came from her. It's more than weed! Two weeks later seeing her again I was like "What the hell are you taking!"          

Thursday, December 11, 2025

Polyamorous wedding two fiance's are better than one

Life is how you make it like in polyamory. Mostly about the female she needs to take care of her happiness everything will follow. Two fiance's are better than one. More so when you get older cuz you probably only have 15 years to live or turn 70 when you're deemed too old cuz you're reminding your partner of her Grandpa and she doesn't want to touch you cuz you're too old for... A mental block thing. Life is short!

I now declare you throuple: how to plan a polyamorous wedding. 
What they learned

MF: My advice to other polyamorous couples who want to get married is to be selfish, and make the day about you and your love.

JC: My number one piece of advice is don’t invite anyone you wouldn’t buy dinner for. https://www.theguardian.com/wellness/2025/dec/11/throuple-polyamorous-wedding-planning

Sunday, December 7, 2025

MISTERess (lover) Best accepted polyamory

  

A mistress is usually a woman in term for those days. But as in these days as things are men can be a woman's mistress also! Fair enough a MISTERess best as a open kind of thing Ployamory or whatever you call it! I been a boy toy two times in my life and almost was a kept man. I took off a semester from college to go out with her and she told me I was going to be her toy boy but I am in college and not a boy, so she is going to call me a play buddy because I wasn't a boy, just letting me know! Yes she gave me $300 but that was so I could be on her level being I was a college kid at the time broke like she was not paying all of my living expenses but she did pay for my next semester in college in her way to let me go. My future was calling me back!

I liked to be called play buddy or toy boy because it let me know I was hers a warm feeling people need like in love and belongingness and so life is too short to not to. (Maslow's belongingness and love needs are the psychological needs for interpersonal relationships, love.)

Would like to put it as termed ~~~~A MISTERess or kept man is a male who is in a relatively long-term sexual and romantic relationship with someone who is married to a different person. Or toy boy, play buddy whats in a name just know it's ok to be than not and it's best to be open about things!

 ~~~~A mistress is usually in a long-term good relationship with a person who is married to someone else and is often referred to as "the other woman". Generally, the relationship is stable and at least semi-permanent, but the couple do not live together openly. The relationship is often, but not always, secret. There is often also the implication that the mistress is sometimes "kept" – i.e., her lover is paying all or some of her living expenses. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mistress_(lover)

 ~~~~Polyamorous relationships are ENM at their core, meaning they are fundamentally based on consent from all people involved. So, much like in a monogamous relationship, poly relationships come with set expectations and boundaries – just not the same ones. https://www.attachmentproject.com/enm/polyamory

Saturday, November 1, 2025

The biggest myths about emotions so Biofeedback.

Said and true "The best way to change your past is to change your present." Environmental stimulus not dwelling in deprivation would lead you to better outcomes. https://walmartramen.blogspot.com/2013/11/environmental-stimulus-kids-in-road-of.html

Also Biofeedback would help. Or the final destination Psychedelic Therapy if bad!

~~~~By learning new things, watching movies, or even acting in a play to get outside of the normal range of what the brain predicts, Barrett argues that it’s possible to change those predictive patterns, and by doing so, to become the architects of our future selves. Understanding how our brain creates emotions can help us manage them freeing us from repeated patterns of behavior and empowering us to control our emotions and heal ourselves. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0QfCvIJRtE0

~~~~Biofeedback is a type of mind-body technique you use to control some of your body's functions, such as your heart rate, breathing patterns and muscle responses. During biofeedback, you're connected to electrical pads that help you get information about your body.

You may not realize it, but when you have pain or are under stress, your body changes. Your heart rate may increase, you may breathe faster, and your muscles tighten. Biofeedback helps you make slight changes in your body, such as relaxing muscles, to help relieve pain or reduce tension. You may be able to decrease your heart rate and breathing, which can make you feel better. Biofeedback can give you the skills to practice new ways to control your body. This can improve a health problem or help make daily activities easier. https://www.mayoclinic.org/tests-procedures/biofeedback/about/pac-20384664 -  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4pVZypfF-4

~~~~The procedure for psychedelic therapy differs from that of therapies using conventional psychiatric medications. While conventional medications are usually taken without supervision at least once daily, in contemporary psychedelic therapy the drug is administered in a single session (or sometimes up to three sessions) in a therapeutic context. The therapeutic team prepares the patient for the experience beforehand and helps them integrate insights from the drug experience afterwards. After ingesting the drug, the patient normally wears eyeshades and listens to music to facilitate focus on the psychedelic experience, with the therapeutic team interrupting only to provide reassurance if adverse effects such as anxiety or disorientation arise. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychedelic_therapy

Your brain doesn’t detect reality so fuzzy logic.

Like the saying "Around about there somewhere!" Is the point of like fuzzy logic functionality in thinking in a quantinated multitasking temperament. Yes and no, yin and yang, duality forming a whole. "Yin-yang is the concept that there exist cosmic principles or forces that are opposites but complementary, which interact, interconnect, support and perpetuate each other. Together they form a dynamic system in which the whole is greater than the interdependent components, and both parts are essential for the cohesion of the whole." https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yin_and_yang 

In relating like in Fuzzy Logic. "Fuzzy logic is a form of many-valued logic in which the truth value of variables may be any real number between 0 and 1. It is employed to handle the concept of partial truth, where the truth value may range between completely true and completely false." https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fuzzy_logic

But in how we all think in how our brain works it does for a reason in so is interesting just for FYI.

What's on Your Mind?

In any past whatever relationship feelings, love desire the normal things in a abnormal world there is the shhh thing like a confidentialit...